I was reading a non-math blog this morning and a girl was talking about how she knew what she wanted for her life and it was frustrating that it just hadn’t happened yet.
When I wasn’t yet, I was dying to be a teacher. All through college and in my credential program I just couldn’t wait for the opportunity to have my own classroom. When it took me 5 years to finish college (with a transfer and what not) I was heart broken at about 3 1/2 years because I wasn’t going to be done. That year and a half seemed painful. It dragged on and on. I wanted the future and I wanted it right now!
Now, I am a teacher. I’m pretty okay at it. But I want to be better. I wanted to be a second year teacher at the same school. I had a pretty good grasp on my future. Then I lost my job and that future changed. I am okay with all that, my future just changed coasts and I can deal. I like change and travel and adventures. I just I want my future now. I want to be settled in NY. I want to have friends, a community and maybe even a relationship. I want to be a great teacher at my new school and I want to have established myself. I want to get to teach siblings of my former students and the same students for more than one year. I’m ready for all that, life, where you at?
In about a week I will be to busy to think about all of this silliness but I feel like I’m not alone in this feeling. I rarely ask for people respond to my post but I am wondering is there some point in your future you just want now? Is it everything? One thing?