A post about why I blog and how I am always just me.
The title of this post is a direct quote from a male student who had so much trouble spitting out that sentence I actually laughed at the end.
“What do you mean?” -me
“It’s just uhh… well… umm… last year I knew this one guy, I mean, yea a guy, who had your glasses.”
I freakin’ love kids. I did get a pair of super nerdy glasses. They are also maybe for men. eh. I think I’m rad.
Jason asked me the other day if readership mattered to me. It’s not been the first time I’ve been asked this. My old blog had a fair number of readers and this one has less than 1/5 of that.
My answer is this: I think it all comes down to purpose. I am no Kate, Sam or Dan. I will never be posting super well thought out stuff like Shawn, Riley or Jason. And I’m pretty sure my resources are just alright so many of them will never make it up here. My blog will always be about the personal side of teaching. It will always be about my class and my kids and my screw ups. That will probably not appeal to as many people as “How to approperiatly use SBG in your classroom” or “How to teach the Pythagorean Theorem using Google Maps.” So do I care that my audience shrunk? Meh. You guys actually like me. That’ll do.
Post Part 2: I am NERD.
There’s something about being a math teacher that is inherently nerdy. We like math, we are smart (most of us), we answer questions with questions. Today an 8th grade girl said this to me, “I like how you are a nerd. You like almost make it cool.” Almost being the key word here because let’s be fair: I am not actually cool. I am an uber nerd. I excel at it. I like math, comic books, fantasy novels, musicals, tv, movies, and my glasses may have previously belonged to Clark Kent. The book I am currently reading is 800 pages and the 14th in a series I’ve been reading since high school.
Here’s what I am trying to teach my kids, the reason I am “almost cool” is because I am just me. I am not trying to be anyone else. I don’t lie about what I am, what I like or what I do. I am silly when I want to be silly, I am not when I don’t want to be. I am unashamedly myself.
Thank god I am not 13 again because it was just terrible. I wish that when I was that age there was a place where I could have just been unafraid to be me. I hope for at least a couple kids I am that place. That my room is a good safe place. I am trying to make that true. I think this is really important because for a lot of my kids that safe place is certainly not hope.
Finally I’ve talked about them a lot and I love them so….
New Glasses! I know, a picture, I am way less anonymous now!!! Whatever.
(If Kate can write a whole post about her skin I can write one about my glasses 😉 )
Not Sophie Germain